~Life~

Takpela syaf… ini adalah dugaan Allah untuk hambanya terus tabah. Kau harus bersyukur hidup kau masih beruntung jika hendak dibandingkan dengan insan – insan lain yang lebih besar dugaannya.

<<- my inner feeling said this->>

TENSION!!!

TENSION MONTH! Argghhhhh! With a lot of work on my desk, dateline to meet, sum up with colleagues that always boiling up my feeling! Urghhh… I really can’t take it anymore! Please, anyone could suggest me how to manage our tension? Or else I may ended up become mad!

A nice post

Yesterday was tiring. It’s not that I got lots of work, but it’s really boring. Well, it’s Monday and everybody not totally in mood to do things.

So, what I did was open up my yahoo messenger and then yeah! Chatting! It’s been a while I didn’t online my YM cuz I don’t want to be bothered by the incoming pm. It doesn’t mean that I’m annoyed just it’s typically me, when I focusing on my work, I will put full commitment on it.

Then I chit chatting with some of my friends and one of them was my ex-housemate in campus, Zai. We talked a lot of things and we flashed back all the memories we shared together when we’re housemate. And upon all the moment we shared, there are always ups and downs. ;)

why?

The situation becomes worse. I didn’t expect it would be like this. Am I a bad person? Am I not a good friend? Am I always thinking about myself? I don’t really sure. I try as much as I could not to hurts anyone feeling. I try not to be a burden to others just because I am around them. I don’t want just because of me they have to be someone else. I don’t want that I am the reason why they turn their face back off me. I don’t want any of that. People would say, why should you care of these things? I don’t know, seriously I don’t have any accurate answer to entertain that question. I hope that it would not end up worse. 

Kipas Susah Mati!

gmbr ni xde kene mengene dgn post, saje je aku letak

Mengadu domba, tu la peribahasa yg aku nk citer sket hr ni.

Minggu ni mmg seswai sgt la aku cter psl ni sbb, pergh! Org yg mmpunyai sikap mengadu domba ni mmg la xleyh blah. Sakit ati pn ade, smpi nk bg penampo pn bleh gak tp nsb bek waras lg. huh!

Klu yg buta huruf tu, mngadu domba tu bkn nye ko g ngadu kt memane pakcik bomba k, tp mksdnye ko tu mengada2 suke jadi tukang report kt bos ko. Klu tym skool dlu, kaki report cikgu r. Slalu yg suke mgadu domba ni mmg kipas ssh mati r. Pijak semut pn xmati aku ckp kau. So elok2 r sket kt org cmni.

De la 2/3 org kat opis aku ni yg mmg menjadikn peribahasa ni sbg matlamat hidup die. Kadang2 geram gak r sbb xpsl2 org2 spt aku ni la yg menjadi mangsa. Pdhal, da mmg ketare dierng ni la yg xwat kije. Alahai hidup… alahai nasib… Sbr je la, sepandai2 ko melompat terer lagi aku melompat… aduyai manusia!

Rainy effect for Blogspot

Hujan ooo hujan~

I successfully created a rainy emotion to my blog yesterday. And I’m so glad I made it!

The rainy effect that I got from this blog is very useful and there are lots of effects that you can check out on the blog. They also teach you how to put it on your blogspot, and it really helps me!

Ok, how I put the rainy effect as the background of my blog?

Firstly, go to Design and click on the Edit HTML.

Find the following text line.

Copy and paste twice of the coding, exactly below the highlighted text line.

Then, edit the following line into the existing rainy code that you copied from the previous link.

Then save the template. Voila, it’s done!

Rambut sama hitam, tp hati nya~

Byk intipati hidup nak aku cerita kn. Tp jari jemari aku mcm stuck atau dlm erti kata puitisnya, kaku. Kaku sbb bkn takut utk berbicara atau segan utk meluahkan, tp kaku dek kesejukan aircond kt ofis aku ni ha. Ekeke!

Ape yg aku nk cerita kn utk posting kali ni? Dlm ligat kepale aku berpikir, ade ke org nk bace posting mngarut aku ni? Huhu… Kenyataan mmg memilukan tp tujuan posting ni bkn utk tatapan org, tp sbnrnya skdr tmpt aku melepaskn batuk di tgga. Ehe, mcm pelik lak bunyinye. Posting2 ni sume sekadar aku nk meluahkn perihal suka duka aku lalui sbg perantau di bumi Allah ni.

Kali ni posting aku berkisar pade satu peribahasa…. ‘Byk org, byk ragam’. Lepas raya ni mmg byk org aku jmp, dgn perangai yg pelik2 belaka. Bak kate mak aku, die slalu pesan… walau rmbut ko hitam same dgn org2 len, hati tetap len…. Btul mak, pesan tu aku jadikan azimat di kala aku sendiri melalui liku2 hidup di tanah org. Ragam manusia mmg pelbagai, smpikan aku xsngka ada jgk org rupe itu ye. Sesungguhnya, ape2 yg kite lakukan, biarlah ikhlas hendaknya. Sbb klu kite ikhlas, kesannya begitu mendalam kt org2 yg kite tolong tu. Tp klu kite xikhlas, org jd tkt nk mtk tolng kt kite, sbb kite da sombong dan takbur dgn ape yg kite ade. Ingtla, ape yg kite ade skrg, semuanya milik Allah swt.

Fikir2 kn lah… Sebagai ikhtibar dan ingatan utk aku jgk…

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

I should have been posted this on the first day of Hari Raya. But, well, I’m not that free to blog anyway. I just get in here when I really have time to write and think at the same time. Hehe. Cuz my thoughts already being reserved for my work, so u know next. ;)

Anyway, this year I am grateful for celebrating the glorious month of Islam, which is Syawal. It is a month where people celebrate the success of sacrifice to be closer with Allah swt. It is also a month where Muslims around the world practice forgiveness and be forgiven. The joyful of this month is nothing can be compared to others. But the more important thing is, we share the joy among each other despise our differences in religion, race and colors.

Marhaban ya Ramadhan

upin ipin yg comey

Ramadhan al-mubarrak is coming. I am so excited since this is my first time fasting in KL. It is also my first moment fasting as grown-up. It is the first moment ever. And it is also my first moment to fast alone. It seems sad but yeah, I can feel that the minutes I cherish back then in the campus life can’t be return back again. Anyway, it will not rout my spirit and I will always be grateful as I could celebrate the most sacred month in Hijrah this year again.

Everyone has their own story during Ramadhan. And mine back then, it was really amusing and sometime I can say a bit horror… Huhu. When I was kid, my father is the one that will woke up the entire house to have supper. The moment I heard my father’s footsteps approaching my room, I will immediately woke up and pretending to him that I already awake early. Why? Because the howling and the loudness voice from my father’s throat was not a goodies to my earlobe. It was really irritating to hear when you are extremely floating in your sweetest dream that night. But, remember I was just pretending that I am awake, okay :P. After 5 minutes my father disappeared from my room, I can’t force my inner intuition to continue my about-to-finish dream. And at the same time, everyone was really busy preparing the food without even realize the non-existence of their little petite family member, that was me :D Until then, when everything were properly done and each of us (oops, I was busy dreaming~~) had already sitting on the floor, (duduk bersila) infront of the delicious-drooling foods, they finally realized that their little princess wasn’t there! Haha!

Ah-ah! There’s come the horror moment. Huhu! I was really terrified when my mom wakes me up when I was a kid. She’s really scary back then. She will scream exactly at my earlobe and I was really frightened because of her shrieking voice. Woaaa! I couldn’t describe with any words of my feeling that moment. What I can say is that my face had whiten-up as if I just saw a banshee. Ekeke! After that, the whole family just pretending nothing happened but I could see some itchy smiles enjoying my dreadfulness moment.

Anyway, I just missed all of them. Perhaps I can be that little petite girl again. ;)

sang mantan - Nidji

Nidji – Sang Mantan

dulu aku kau puja

dulu aku kau sayang

dulu aku sang juara

yang selalu engkau cinta

kini roda telah berputar

kini aku kau hina

kini aku kau buang

jauh dari hidupmu

kini aku sengsara

roda memang telah berputar

mana janji manismu

mencintaiku sampai mati

kini engkau pun pergi

saat ku terpuruk sendiri

akulah sang mantan

akulah sang mantan

sakit teriris sepi

ketika cinta telah pergi

akulah sang mantan

akulah sang mantan

mana janji manismu

setia sampai aku mati

kini engkau pun pergi

saat ku jatuh dan sendiri

mana janji manismu

mencintaiku sampai mati

kini engkau pun pergi

saat ku terpuruk sendiri

akulah sang mantan

akulah sang mantan

akulah sang mantan

akulah sang mantan

mana janji-janjimu

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The so-called friend ...

tomodachi no kerab

It happened early this year. A brother of my friend asked me to join his so-called friend club. Anyway, straight to the point… It’s one of the MLM businesses and since I came to KL, it’s really popular among my friends. Some gave me great and promising opinion and some told me it was trick and dangerous. I am not familiar with this because it’s not popular in my hometown anyway. I’ve heard about Uptrend, Amway, CNI and whatever it is during my schooldays but eventually they faded away. No one ever care about the MLM thing, and because maybe my hometown don’t really care about it anyway.

But, I feel so grateful today cuz I didn’t managed to get into the club. Y? I’ll explain but let me story it first. It was because of many factors. One of the things is that I’m not eligible to get personal loan. That’s the major hindrance but I still tried my best to join the club. And Along (brother of my friend) told me there is one way to join it but I have to find him 2 persons in order for me to be one of the members. And that 2 person must entitle the ‘C’ package which is worth of 40,000 Malaysian ringgits. I was like… aduyai! How am I getting the 2 people? Even if I managed to find them, it’s still unsure they will join as members.

And there was that day when I invited one of my longtime friends, Fanta. She is always eager in investing her money, therefore I asked her first. At last that night, Fanta and her friend willing to invest their money in. At first, it seems so smooth until Fanta told me she was not allowed to get personal loan anymore because of her banking problem. She was advised by the monetary personnel to cancel her loan. Aiyo! At that time, I was so down cuz I will never get the chance to gain any more people. Huhu! After Fanta and her friend cancelled their membership to the club, I didn’t looked for any people cuz I’m tired of saying the MLM thing over and over again. Malas lah! It’s not my thing anyway, and then I just let it be without any concern.

Until today my friend told me that members of the club had been arrested last night because of reporting made to the police over the club. I was a bit shocked anyway (Y? should be I was totally at shocked right…) because lately, I‘ve heard a news that a top member of the club had conducted fraud over the money last month. (Oic, that’s y I’m not really at shock today… kehkehkeh!). At that time I was really grateful not to be able to join the club.

Why am I desperate to join the so-called friend club anyway? It’s not like I want to be rich as fast as I can, but at that time my father has been hospitalized and I’m in need of some money to cover his bills. That time was really distressed since my former employer didn’t pay my salary on schedule, and I used most of my savings to cover the expenses. I was really fraught to increase my monthly cash and even thought to get part time job at night to support my living and my parents at hometown. It’s really hard and when the promising ‘opportunity’ like that come in front of me, I was intrigued to take it without realizes that it might snare my life in the future.

So in conclusion, don’t ever try new things if you’re unsure of it. At least you ask for various thoughts and based on that, it might help you to decide what the best thing for you. Your life is your own obligation and no one is allowed to interfere your rights in order for you to make a decision. I’ve learnt my lesson and perhaps what I said here could contribute something to anyone out there.

Signing off,

JS.

.....F.....

my recycle bin is always full

If it’s doing nothing is the easiest thing to do in this world, how could it still bothering me? I’ve think a lot about my life, and always searching for the tiny pieces in my puzzling mind, trying to solve and find out what are the things that I missed that can give such catastrophic event during my past, but often I couldn’t find it. Sometimes I always want to do the right thing so that everything going to be right all the way, but it’s not in my ability to control what could happen next.

People say “Practice makes perfect” but I couldn’t see any perfection on any practices that I’ve made before. I tried to make things not complicated, easy and simple as it is, but eventually it would end up composite and complex anyway. For example, if you need money, you have to get yourself employed and become a fully-dedicated employee. But at the end, you still not gotten any of it because of there are factors that makes the money you earn isn’t yours. Isn’t it complicated? You try to be a good person and a good son for example, but there are some factors that turned up things more puzzling and muddled such as shoddier relationship among your family, the struggle and conflict between you and your inner feelings, the martyr that you have to make in the decision to have such superior life like everyone else… Isn’t it complicated?

If this life is as easy as saying “Yeah, you should do A… Oww, nope. A isn’t right, you should do B anyway”, how wonderful is life you may say. But, no it’s not going to be simple, it’s definitely not getting easy like you can imagine. It’s not like you have a button that say “Clear the history” or “Clean the memory” or even “Fix the error”, that should give a light to a better solution, no it’s not going to happen. There is no silver bullet to any problems in this world. If there is, anyone of us can be like James Bond and ended up like the happily ever after stories. Life is problematical but God promises that every problems, there is solutions. How am I getting there….? No one knows…Even God wouldn’t say it; I have to find it myself. But how much longer I have to wait? It’s like craving for freedom and sovereignty. I have no answer, I have nothing and I have no one … All I have is guts!

Desperado...

cerita perempuan2 yg desperate... klaka tp bongok

No one ever so real for once in their life, for instance everyone is hypocrite about what they stood over themselves. Except when they got mad or something that made them sad, for sure the emotionality expression that takes one inside couldn’t be bare off. It may hold for some time but it won’t last longer.

The emotionality breakdown may lead someone get outraged. They do stupid things, abuse the situation around them and rebel as much as they could, just to get people’s attention towards them. Why human need other’s attention? Seems like, each and every one of us that live on this earth are desperate of it. Some may against my opinion, but without we all knowing, yes we are attention-seekers.

Maybe it’s overwhelming for others to be called as ‘desperate’ for attention, but yes we’re craving for it. Craving and desperate are not very much difference right (maybe it’s because I like to point out supa-dupa words to express my emotion… hyperbolic expression you may said).

Never mind, what’s the point I’m writing this bloody-shit-thingy here? All I can answer is, I don’t really know and I don’t really f*kcing care about what I’m going to write cuz it’s my blog anyway. Anyway, maybe this is one way of showing my desperado towards other’s attention. Writing something that people say so-called rubb*sh. HUAHUAHUAHUA….

Sign off before I get more desperate…..

Cinta ...

One of my all-time favorite song from Melly Goeslow. Enjoy!

Cinta

Artist: Melly Goeslaw

Menatap jalan yang menjauh
Tentukan arah yg ku mau
Tempatkan aku pada satu
Peristiwa yang membuat hati lara

Di dekat engkau aku tenang
Sendu matamu penuh tanya
Misteri hidup akankah menghilang
Dan bahagia di akhir cerita

Cinta tegarkan hatiku
Tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
Naluriku berkata
Tak ingin terulang lagi
Kehilangan cinta hati
Bagai raga tak bernyawa

Aku junjung petuamu
Cintai dia yang mencintaiku
Hati yang dulu belayar
Kini telah menepi
Bukankah hidup kita
Akhirnya harus bahagia

Cinta
Biar saja ada
Yang terjadi biar saja terjadi
Bagai manapun hidup
Memang hanya cerita
Cerita tentang meninggalkan dengan ditinggalkan
Cinta

Kata kata kosong

Mencari pengertian hidup amat sulit bila perjalanan suatu kehidupan itu diselangi dengan onak-onak duri. Pencarian suatu kebahagian yang entah bila bisa ketemukan jika sekelip kegembiraan itu ditemani kesetiaan suatu kesedihan. Melihat potret-potret teman mengukir senyuman keriangan, mengundang suatu perasaan yang tak biasa aku ungkapkan. Mengapa di kala aku, seorang insan seperti jua mereka, hanya merasai manis yang sekejap cuma namun kedukaan hati jua yang tetap ku rasa. Aku hanya insan yang mahu bebas dari belenggu ini, namun jauh di sudut hati, setiap manusia ciptaan Illahi takkan lari dari dugaan untuk menguji ketabahan hati.

JS.

Tentang Dia ...

Remy yang aku kenal ialah seorg yg periang. Memang suke berceloteh dan salah satu habit yang terkenal, suke sngt menyakat org. Remy bleh gak dikategorikn sensitive, sbb bile disakat kadang2 merajuk gak, tp Alhamdulillah senang dipujuk. Hehe! Tetibe lak aku cerita psl si Remy ni. Sape Remy ni? Ape kaitan dgn aku?

Nak dijadikan cerite, Remy ni member aku time aku msih belaja kat matrikulasi Labuan. Cmne aku leh kenal? Aku dgn geng2 aku ni boleh la dikatekan havoc sikit. Perangai pn pelik2. Aku suke tido, Agatha jenis psycho, Octivia plak ganas, Faye lak tak berenti berckp, pastu Andy lak jenis suke melatah, si Asly plak dgn loghat Sabah yg pekat tu. Sbb tu r Remy senang masuk group kiterng. (Ms ni gak r aku dpt gelaran ratu tido… ekekeke!) Sejak dr tu r kiterng ni rapat.

Tp hari ni aku tak nak cerita pasl Remy yg aku kenal dlu. Knape? Sbb aku ade satu cerite yg mungkin bleh dijadikan teladan. Klu dilihat dr segi prestasi blaja, Remy ni bkn calang2 org. SPM straight A, matrikulasi lak 4 flat tiap sem, university tak yah citer la, anugerah dekan je die pulun. Mmg hebat, ckp hebat, tp yg buat die makin hebat, family background die. Tgk prestasi yg mmbanggekn tu mesti korg tak caye family die cmne. Org ingt famili die mesti bahagie, tp hakikat yg sbnr mmg perit. Aku pn xpercaye, tp itulah hakikatnye. Famili die tak seindah yang kite fikirkan. Mcm2 konflik yg berlaku. Klu aku nak citer, mmg sadis. Smpikn die prnh berkate kt aku, rumah die bknlah syurga yg die impikan. Klu org lain meng-Agung2kn ibu yg tlh melahirkan kite, tp die lain, die lebih menyayangi ayahnye yg byk berkorban demi die dan adik beradik. Knape dgn ibu Remy ni? Ckp la aku katekan ibu Remy ni dah kabur dgn kehidupan duniawi, hingga lupe tggjwb ukhrawi. Smpikan aku terfikir, mmg sebijik mcm drama kisah si Remy ni. Tak sangke aku, ade jgk org sebegitu di dunie ni. Aku betul2 respect kt ayah Remy ni, die seorg yg sgt tabah dan sggh sbr dgn karenah isterinye tu. Klu la terkena kt org lain, masyaAllah tak tau la. Dah lme kot diceraikan, tp ayah si Remy ni mmg lelaki sejati. Klu lelaki biase, konfem da cari org lain, tp ayah Remy ni tak pnh berpts asa agar ibu Remy ni sedar dan bertaubat. Baik sggh hati ayah Remy ni.

Aku nasihat kt Remy spy byk2 bersabar dan jgn pts ase berdoa kt Allah spy ibu die sedar dan kembali ke pangkal jalan. Segala dugaan dan ujian yg Allah berikan tu ada hikmahnye, dan terpulang pd kite utk menghadapinye atau tak. Bg aku kisah Remy ni byk menyedarkan aku pd sgale perkara. Sesungguhnye dugaan dan halangan tu bknla alas an utk kite mundur atau tewas tp itulah anjakan atau sebab utk kite terus berjaye. Sbr ye Remy, aku yakin suatu hari nanti, segale kesabaran ko dgn ayah ko akan dibalas. Allah Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Adil.

courtesy The Stem Cell Blog

JS.

someone that i called ...

Terkejut pn ade, mcm tak percaye pun ade. Lame dah aku tak bercakap dgn die, tp bru je sebentar td aku dpt pangglan dr die. Die tu sape? Mesti tertanye2 kan… Hurm, nak dipendekkan cerite, die tu abang aku. Mcm pelik pn ade sbb selame ni, jarang la die nak telefon aku. Kiterng adik beradik ni agak pelik, klu bab telefon ni, 2, 3 tahun sekali. Tak pun, nak dekat raye baru r telefon bertny kabar. Klu sesaje nak borak tu, kirim salam r. Hubungan kiterng ni mmg tak erat langsung, tp aku tak hairan la. Ade sebab mengape mcm tu.

Dlu mase kecik, aku ni rapat jgk la dgn abg aku yg sorng ni. Kiterng byk berkongsi cerite, die plak jenis suke berkongsi pengalaman. Pengalaman mengurat awek2 die. Hurmm… playboy. Nak ckp hensem, aku lg hensem kot. Hahaha! Maybe la sbb ramai jgk yg kirim salam kt die, aku pn tak fhm. Ye la, klu la dierng tahu abang2 aku tu mcm mn, konpem la dierng tak nak mengurat abang2 aku tu.

Aku berbual dgn die kejap jek. Sekadar bertny kabar. Aku ckp ayah crik die, so nasihat kt die telefon2 la dierng tu. Abg aku ni mls, sbb mesti mak ayah aku tny psl duit. Hurmmm… ye la, die pn da janji nk kirim duit, of kos la ayah aku mengungkit. Ntah la,perangai die tak berubah sejak dlu, pastu teringin nak kawin. Tak fhm la aku! Ntah la. Kadang2 aku cemburu jgk dgn member2 aku yg ade adik beradik yg jenis ok dan memahami ni… Balik kpg je best sbb jmp adik beradik. Len lak mcm aku ni. Hurmm, mls nk crite byk. Hanya aku dan Tuhan je yang taw.

Nape ntah aku cite psl abg aku ni? Aku pn xtaw. Hehe! Sbnrnye aku rindu kemesraan kiterng adik beradik dlu. Bile la sume tu akan kembali…

courtesy from Strollerderby

JS.

Pandangan berbeza...

Hari ni aku agak byk berfikir. Klu dilihat dr personalti seorg Libra, salah satu ciri2 mereka ni kuat berfikir. Ntah ape yg difikirkan tu, tak tau la kan. Ianya subjektf utk semua org. Utk aku, aku slalu berfikir pasl kehidupan. Mcm2 la, benda yg berligat dlm otak aku ni berkisar pd kehidupan aku dulu dan sekarang. Tiap kali aku bersendiri, ade saje bende yang aku nak fikir. Mmg da jadi habit.

Tp mlm ni tetibe aku berfikir pasl cinta. Uiseyh… aku jarang bercerita pasl bende satu ni, nak fikr pn susah, tp entah tetibe jek topic ni terlintas kt fikiran lak. Klu org xknal aku, mungkin die takkan percaye yang aku ni suke bace mutiare kate. Sbb muiare kate ni menarik, penuh pengertian dan maksud tersirat tp tetap senang difahami dan dihayati. Sebaris ayat cukup utk menerangkan sesuatu perkara dgn jelas dan mendalam. Xyh nk wat novel pepanjang, cukupla dgn beberape kerat perkataan jek.

Bagi aku, cinta ni ibarat bola di atas permukaan yang rata. Bola tu putih tak berwarna, ibarat cinta, putih dan suci. Mungkin pd mulenye kite fikir bola tu same sbb lumrah benda bulat, setiap permukaan tak berbeza, tp sebenarnye kite silap. Pada suatu sudut pandangan yang berbeza, kite akan melihat pemandangan yang berbeza. Sbg contoh, klu kite lihat pada sudut tepat 90’ darjah dr sudut atas bola, kita akan lihat bola tu mcm leper. Tp bile kite lihat pd sudut 180’ darjah, pandangan yang berbeza pula akan kelihatan. Kadang2 setiap manusie ni akan membuat andaian berdasarkan ape yang dierng lihat. Persoalannye sekarang, adakah kite ni melihat bola tu secara keseluruhan? Sperti manusia suatu ketika dahulu, takut berlayar sebab ingatkan bumi ni leper. Mcm kite jgk, lihat cinta tu suatu yang menyakitkan sebab kite hanye melihat cinta itu di suatu sudut sahaje. Kite tak pernah terfikir pun yang sebenarnye cinta tu mcm bola, kite fikir hitam sbb kite lihat dr sudut bawah, memang la hitam sebab dikaburi dgn bayang2. Tp kite terlupe ada suatu sudut di permukaan bola tu yang cerah dan terang benderang, malangnye kite tak sedar tu semue.

Mungkin kite tak dapat lihat kesemuanye tp ape yang kite dpt buat ialah mencari suatu sudut yang sesuai agar pandangan kite ni boleh melihat secare keseluruhan tp bukan semue. Sbb lumrah manusia, tidak ade yang sempurna melainkan Allah yang Maha Esa. Kesimpulanya, Sentiasalah berusaha utk melihat cinta itu secara menyeluruh bukan hanya melihat dari sudut pandangan shj, supaye kite lebih memahami dan menghayati cinta yang sebenarnye.

JS.

Another post...

Kemengantukan melanda. I am so sleepy today. My eyes are really exhausted and forcing my mind to indulge their need to rest. But I’m not going to surrender man! Because my big bosses are in front of me right now. What will happen if they realize that one of their staff is visiting the other world peacefully (tgh syok bermimpi… ekeke!) without their notice? I don’t have to answer that because perhaps you guys already know the consequences right! Huhu… T_T

Anyway, last weekend have been really busy days for me, but yet exciting. We’re so productive since we didn’t waste any time to excite our brain and emotion with activities. Jungle tracking, karaoke, lepaking, window shopping a bit, cuci mata which watching some “hot stuff” nearby hehe… we really did fulfill all the time effectively…. ;) For this time, I write my experience to climb Broga Hill which was really exciting. I and my friends have promise to come back again next time.

It was Saturday … At early morning, before ayam - ayam not yet awake from their dream, we start our trip to Broga Hill. It’s somewhere in Semenyih which it’s also my first trip to there. We nearly lost since our “GPS” not really working that day… hehe, because all of us never been there before, but thank God we made it. We arrived at about 6.20am, and then we start climbing. It’s challenging though because we didn’t prepare any proper equipment but that didn’t stop our spirit to conquer the Great Broga Hill… hehe! At first it seems easy, but when we’re nearly arriving at the hilltop, there’s a very dangerous steep to be faced. I have some experienced climbing hillside before, during my study and I applied some of the tips, so that you will not be weary or exhausted while climbing.

Then every sacrifice is paid off when we saw a beautiful view on the hilltop. It was startling, yet really inspiring. I recommended to those who really love to take picture to visit Broga Hill as to complete their collection. What really disappoint me that day was that, I couldn’t take any picture since my mobile phone didn’t have any camera. HUHU… I missed my old mobile phone. It was stolen last year which traumatize me to buy new mobile phone. Now I know it’s important to have mobile phone with camera nowadays, and looking forward to buy a new one. Hehe!

courtesy of Pixel Amour Photography

Regards,

JS

Jangan menyerah...

This is for someone that I care about. I hope that what had happened recently will never slow down her spirits. I know I couldn’t do much, but perhaps she know that as a friend, I’ll be there for her. This is for u.

Jangan menyerah - D-masiv

Let's learn something!

Let’s learn some of my native language that is Melanau language. I may be not the best person to teach this to u guys out there, but I try my best.

For starters, I’ll teach the most basic language which is the most essential things that u have to know in Melanau’s. Okay, I have listed some of them below:

1. Eat – Keman (pronounce as Ke-man)
2. Drink – Tuteng (pronounce as Two-teng)
3. Sleep – Tudui (pronounce as Two-do-i)
4. Cloth (in Malay – ‘Baju’) – Bajew (pronounce as Ba-je-u)
5. Pants (in Malay – ‘seluar’) – Seluah (pronounce as Se-Lu-wah)
6. Cry – Menangeh (pronounce as Men-na-ngeh)
7. House – Lebok (Pronounce as Le-Bo-k)
8. Pee (in Malay –‘Kencing’) – Sinek (pronounce as C-Nek)
9. Walk (in Malay –‘berjalan’) – Makaw (pronounce as Ma-Cau)
10. Go back (in Malay –‘Pulang’) – Pulek (pronounce as Pul-ek)

Okay, I think that's it for now. More will be posted next. If anything u want to know more, just list em for me, and I’ll translate it for ya.

Regards,

JS

Money that talks....

Hari ni terdetik aku nak meluahkan sesuatu, sbb ianye buat aku agak sedih sikit, lame da aku pendam bnd ni. Xdela byk tp boleh buat aku terguris r. Aku tau, walaupun aku da keje ni, aku xmampu nk bg kemudahan atau dlm erti kate lain, duit kt mak ayah aku dlm jumlah yg byk. Satu sebabnye, gaji aku xde la besar sgt, tp klu nk bg 2, 3 rat tu okla… ckp mkn, sbb aku tkt duduk jejauh dr family ni ssh… almaklum, klu saat2 genting smpi, mcm ape aku alami skrg… gaji xdpt2 lg.

Sbb gaji xdpt lagi ni la, aku smpi xleyh nk call mak aku slalu. Ye la, klu de duit, aku rse tiap2 minggu, tiap2 hari aku nk call. Tp sbb nk jimat pny psl, aku xcall sesape dlm mase yg lame. Bkn berkire tp aku ingtkn hujung bulan aku dpt la gaji, tp sebaliknye berlaku. Dan nk habis bulan 5 da, gaji aku ntah ade khabar ke x. Aku pn xtau.

Ape kne mengena sume ni dgn ape yg aku nk tulis skrg? Mcm xde kaitan plak kn…. Hehe! Hurm, pagi ni ayah aku telefon bertanye khabar. Smlm aku nk call die balik, tp sbb aku training ditambah lagi dgn kredit aku yg agak sempit, mcm nyawa2 ikan, aku tggu r smpi petang tu. Adela…. Aku pinjam dgn member, Alhamdulillah… adela jgk utk bertahan smpi hujung bulan ni. Aku tol2 sedih tp nk wat cmne terdesak… klu nk ikutkn rase, aku xkn meminjam kt org len, tp aku kesian dgn gp aku sbb next week kiterng pn same2 nk turun keje. Aku sedih bile die ckp xnk turun keje semate2 nk bg aku turun kje. Huhu! Kesian, smpi mcm tu skali kn…

So, berbalik pd ayah aku. Die tnye kbr dgn aku, sihat ke… Mcm mne dgn keje bru sume … aku ckp sihat, keje ok, pastu aku mintak maaf sbb lame da xkol dierng… Ayah aku ni seorng yg amat memahami… Dr aku kecik, die sorg je taw dan fhm isi hati aku… Just kekdang tu, die agak tegas, tp dlm ketegasan die tu, xpnh buat aku kecik hati. Tu r ayah aku, tp ade saat tu aku berang jgk dgn die psl ye la suatu mse dlu, de kejadian yg aku xingini berlaku, tp die xckp or buat ape2… Mungkin die serba salah time tu… Ah, lupekan la…. Mls nk ingt… So pastu ayah aku ckp mak aku nk sembang… ak pn xsbr nk tny khabar die … Mule2 tu ok, tp pastu ayat2 die mmg mcm pedang…. Tajam dan tulus… aku sedih sbb aku taw ape yg buat die marah… Bkn sbb aku xkol die ke ape, sbb bulan ni aku xkirim ape2 pn utk die… Sindiran die tu mmg mengguris hati, smpi ckp nk mtk bantuan kebajikan masyarakt sbb xde anak die yg care psl die… Aku da lali dgn ayat die tu, slalu la cmtu klu aku lmbt skit kirim duit… Mule la die buat ayat sedih die tu… Huhu! Pastu die ckp die xnk ape2 dah dr aku… aduyai… Nk menitis air mate aku tym tu… Aku ckp la, bkn xnk kirim or ape, gaji pn belum masuk lg… Pastu die tnye, de duit ke… aku ckp ade la sikit, tp sbnrnye duit aku mmg da xde… klu xmeminjam, xde la duit tu… Terus die ckp, xpela… xyhla telefon lame2 ni… nnt kredit habis, menyusahkn korg je… Huhu! Aku tol2 sedih … aku taw aku xdpt bg yg terbaik tp aku cube utk bagi yg terbaik yg aku boleh …. Mungkin xnmpk atau ape yg aku dpt bagi tu hanye sikit, tp tu la kasih syg yg aku cube nk smpikn kt die …

Dr kecik lagi aku nk perhatian dr die, bkn la perhatian tp teringin tgk die tersenyum dan belai aku dgn kate2 yg lembut, tp aku xpnh dpt, maybe sbb time tu konflik antara die dgn ayah hebat berlaku. Klu dierng bergaduh, aku la mangse maki hamun, sbb adik beradik aku yg len sume lari, xnk stay umh, aku la tmpt bertepuk bertampar… mcm boxing nye bantal tu, jd tempat sepak terajang, maybe sbb tu jgk aku kurus dlu, sbb xde selera… Tp tu kisah dlu, skrg aku da besar, xde la jd sepak terajang… tp pedas r telinge bile dgr die membebel… Aku hrp die fhm mslh aku skrg, tp she’s most likely not… she will never try to understand me, aku taw sgt die mcm mne… what ever happens, we are the one that should please her … Maybe cuz she grows in that kind of situation… Lain mcm ayah aku, lembut dan memahami… klu balik kpg pn, mmg berbeza… family mak agak kasar skit klu berbahase, gurauan kdng2 boleh menyinggung perasaan… Klu sblh ayah plak, aduyai… lemah lembut, tutur bhs mmg di jage… bergurau pn xpnh mengguris hati org… Even we’re asked whr to go, I always please n excited to go back to my dad’s hometown… Mum? Most likely I don’t wanna go… cuz most of the family are pessimist and arrogant… tmbh2 lagi dgn aku ni yg da nak dekat 3 ke 4 thn xjenguk kpg mak… lagi la jd bhn sindiran… hurmm… Tp nk wat cmne, dat’s my mum… Xpela klu die nk ckp aku ni bkn ank yg baik or x care ke ape, yg penting aku bkn mcm tu, n aku xkn jadi cmtu… Sbb yg taw sape aku sbnrnye hanyalah diri aku sendiri… xde org lain. Lagipn, aku je harapan die… yg len tu … ntah la… Sikpa la mak, wlo cmne pn ktk mdh aku tok jaik, sik kisah hal ktk, sikpala… sbr jak dolok, mungkin tok cabaran aku mok Berjaya… Kelak suatu masa, ktk akan bangga dgn anak ktk tok, anak yg ktk slalu marah, anak yg ktk pdh sik berguna dolok… Anak yg mls, degil… suma la… anak ktk tok la yg akan jaga ktk, xda org lain… It’s my word…. Sikpa la, bersabar, org bersabr xpnh rugi…

Flashback ... Part End

Dlm kepala aku waktu tu nk lari jek. Lantas dgn sekuat tenaga aku berlari, meluru keluar dr bilik dan terus ke tgkt bwh. Hanya seorg berlegar - legar dlm kepala aku waktu tu, Mak long! Aku berteriak memanggil name mak long. Mak long! Mak long! Mak long!

Da mcm org hilang akal! Sape xhilang akal! Ade kapal nk rempuh rumah, mmg mcm giler beb! Yer, lembaga besar yang aku lihat dengan mate kepale aku sendiri adalah sebuah kapal dermaga yang amat besar, sampaikn kawasan hutan di depan rumah aku tu kelihatan redup sebab terlindung oleh bayangnye. Aku pun terus meluru ke arah bilik mak long yg ketike tu tgh bertudung litup memakai telekung. Lantas, aku terus tarik lengan nye smbil berteriak, “Mak long, lari! Lari kita lari! Nun, kapal! Laju2!” Aku xsedar yg aku dah teresak2 menangis. Mak long aku yg betul2 hairan dan terperanjat ketika tu, terus beristighfar. “Astaghfirullah… Knape kau tok neng?! Ya Allah!”

Aku menggelupur mcm org gile tym tu. Yg pasti kapal tu makin dekat! Makin menggila aku dibuatnye. Meracau xsudah, smbil tangan aku menarik lengan mak long supaya keluar dr rumah. Tiba2 aku terase tangan yg sungguh sejuk mengusap muka aku. Betul2 terase kedamaian menerpa. Mata aku terpejam seketika smbil kedengaran seseorg terkumat kamit membaca doa. Dgn tidak semena – mena, bdn aku trase lemah xberdaya. Lalu aku peluk tubuh mak long ketika itu, aku sungguh takut. Menggigil seluruh tbuh, ketakutan. Syukur ade nye mak long di sisi. Mak long menenangkn aku dengan belaian penuh kasih sayang.

Mak long seorg wanita yg taat dan alim orgnya. Tak pernah sekali pn aku lihat die marah, lemah lembut tutur kata. Itulah yg membuatkn sesiapa saje akn sejuk hati bile bersama dgn beliau. Slepas keadaan beransur tenang, aku ceritakn pdnya yg aku terlihat kapal besar sedang menghala ke arah rumah, membuatkn aku panik. Mak long terus beristighfar, lalu mmberitahu aku yg aku sbnrnye terbwk2 oleh mimpi. Pastu die nasihatkn aku jgn lagi tidur waktu petang, lagi2 waktu asar. Dah la tu takde org kt tgkt ats, so makhluk2 halus ni suke mengganggu lagi2 bdk kecik mcm aku. Die jg ade gtaw aku yg makhluk halus ni akn suke berkeliaran ketika nk maghrib, jd jgn la tdo sbb mungkin roh kite dgn xsengaja masuk ke alam mereka. Aku terkedu, letih dan masih trauma dgn kejadian tu. Tp yg nyata, kapal tu seolah2 wujud dan ape yg mengagumkn aku, yg pd mse yg sme takut jgk sbnrnye, kapal tu betul2 besar, xpnh aku lihat sblm ni. Namun pengajaran yg paling aku ingt smpi skrg, jgn r tdo waktu asar. Klu yg ade adik2 kecik tu, bek jgn melatih dierng, sat g jadik cam aku! Eee… ngeri!

Flashback ... Part I

Petang tu memang lain. Sunyi sepi, ye la, mungkin sbb mak aku balik kpg. Xde la org nk bising – bising, bak kate ayah… membebel je kejenye. Huhu. Tp peristiwa yg aku nk citer ni mmg agak lain, sbb petang tu la aku mimpi sesuatu yg amat dasyat sekali. Dasyat yg teramat, smpi kn aku berpeluh. Basah lencun baju aku. Tersentak aku dari tidur. Fuh! Nasib baik la hanya mimpi. Smpi sekarang aku masih ingat lagi setiap bait cerita dalam mimpi aku tu.

Lantas aku bangun dr katil. Mmg panas mse tu. Ye la, dah la aku x psng kipas. Mane x pns dibuatnye. Dr kejauhan, aku dengar bunyi tanah mcm di gembur. Aku pn trus r usha ke tingkap, sape la yg empunye kerje ye. Aku lihat ade seseorg tgh mencangkul tanah. Aku kenal benar kelibat tu.Tambah2 lagi dgn asap rokok terhembus laju je dr mulut die. Memang sah la ayah aku. Dengan topi lebar nye, berpakaian lengkap, mcm nak g kebun. Pd hal belakang umh je, huhu. Ayah aku mmg minat berkebun. Aku ingt lagi kate2 pakcik aku kt kpg, tgn ayah dgn mak ni berkat. Tanam ape pun, mmg menjadi. Uiseh, mcm ade special power lak ye. Tp mmg aku akui la kelebihan ayah n mak aku tu.

Tp ape yg berlaku ptg tu, bkn la psl ayah aku nk berkebun ke ape, tp sesuatu lain. Yg pelik, smpi sekarang aku msih ingt, segar gile kt fikiran aku. Tgh aku dok usha ayah aku tu, die perasan r mcm ade org tgk die. Pastu die tersenyum bile tgk aku berdiri kt tgkap bilik aku kt tgkt atas. Aku pn senyum. Tetibe die ambik r ulat tanah yg kaler putih, pastu buat lagak mcm die nk mkn ulat tu. Aku pn menggeliat r geli. Da aku mmg geli tgk menatang tu, lagi la ayah aku nk show off. Eeee! X kuase beb. Ayah aku tergelak r tgk gelagat aku yg mcm xkeruan je tgk die, pastu die teruskan la mencangkul. Aku pn mls r nk layan die. Mate aku meliar kt kwsn belukar kt belakang umh. Mmg besar, da rse mcm hutan. Mmg hutan pn sbnrnye, huhu. Tp hutan tu x buat aku takut pn, maybe sbb da biase kot.

Tetibe aku terkejut. Mate aku terbeliak lihat satu lembaga yg besar kt depan mate aku ketika tu. Sampaikn aku melopong, tak dapat nk bersuara. Aku betul2 terkejut beb! Dpt aku rasekn udara sejuk mule menyelinap tubuh aku pdhal tadi bukan men lagi pns. Langkah demi langkah aku mengundur ke belakang. Aku nk berteriak, tp suara aku betul2 tersekat. Mcm ade bende melekat kt anak tekak. Lembaga tu betul2 sebijik mcm dlm mimpi aku. Aku betul2 rase kewujudan nye, mmg real! Bising smpi bingit telinga aku, ntah dr mane la bunyi tu keluar aku pn xtaw. Aku jadi panik! ... bersambung

04/10/10 03:23PM

Hr ni aku decide xnk turun keje, sbb smlm btol2 spoil kn mood aku. Ye la, penat wat keje, bleh je dierng senang2 ckp aku xde wtpe. Rs mcm xdihargai jek. So dgn ini, aku mls r nk trun, klu trun wt keje pn bkn dpt extra income, klu ade xpe la jgk kn.

So spnjg hr ni aku tido, memulihkan tenaga dan kecergasan otak. Hehe! Pastu aku da mls da nk tido sbb mak aku ckp klu jd tebiat kang smpi ke tua aku mls. Xnk r smpi cm2 kn. Then aku wt la system genealogy aku tu. Utk pengetahuan sume, genealogy ni family tree, so aku wt la system yg mmbolehkn user buat family tree die. Ms mule2 nk wt dlu, aku ingt senang r, sbb nk susun org jek ikut relationship dierng. So sme la mcm buat organization punyer chart. Aku decide buat dlm flash sb mesti lebih interctiv dn lebih ummph! kununnye.

Aduhai, aku rse da sebulan da aku wt keje ni, di samping buat la side task yg dierng suruh. Tekanan giler la buat genealogy ni sbb mcm2 situasi yg kne aku fikir. Mule2 dpt, skali bile aku tukar cr masukkn data, cthnye dr anak ke bpk… bru la aku rse tekanan tu mmg smpi limit otak aku. Seminggu aku stuck sbb coding tu, btol2 xde idea, smpi menitik jgk r air mate emas aku ni. Hehe! Nk tny senior sblh, lg la dgn muke tension die tu, bek xyh tnye. Sat g ko yg lagi tension, so care terbek cr la penyelesaian sndr.

Mule2 aku da give up, siap gtaw bos aku mmg da blurr. So die suh r senior aku tu wat len, kebetulan dierng ade gak genealogy. Mule2 aku ingt aku da setel, skali tetibe senior aku tu ckp die xleyh wt, sbb bnd tu system land based. Adoyaii, klu da xleyh tu, xyh je ckp ko bleyh buat dlm meeting, saje je nk tnjuk hero. Hurmmm. Last2 aku kne continue blik r. Lepas byk2 berdoa kpd Allah swt, akhirnye Die kurniakn jln penyelesaian kt aku. Alhamdulillah aku berjaya gak buat tp xde la spnuhnye. Tp ape yg terjadi pd pagi tu btol2 membuka minda aku utk buat system ni dgn lncr. Aku bersyukur sgt time tu.

Bnd yg paling byk aku belajar kt cni ialah, ko kne byk2 mengampu bos. Huhu! Tp nk wt cmne aku ni bkn suke mengampu org. Ape yg aku slalu buat, utarakn pndptla wlu pn kdng2 org xbrp nk mbik idea ko tu, tp at least ko mencube mmbuat perubahan. Stakat ni aku happy gak r sbb at least design yg aku nk utk system tu digunekn, tp sikit je la. Aku suke modern look, tp maybe citerase aku dgn org2 lame kt ofis tu xsehala, tpks la aku akur dgn design dierng yg agak skema la bile aku tgk. Secara kesuluruhan, projek tu mmg ade value, tp targeting user die mcm xkne plak, sbb aku rse skrg ni yg byk gune Internet adalah org2 sebaya aku, golongan belia, dan kebykkn kiterng sukekn bnd2 yg bg entertainment, satu lg yg bleh bg profit. Itu pd pendpt aku la.

Bkn pe, klu nk di lihat pd perkembangan semase, eCommerce kt Malaysia booming tym 2005 and so on. Kbykkn pengguna tym tu adalah 18 dan ke atas. Klu tnye yg baye2 kakak aku la 30 ke atas, xrmai, klu ade pn sbb company die gne computer n internet. Scope pengguna tu aku rse blum ckp power lg utk kiterng move on dgn sistem ni. Tu yg cbe aku utarekn kt bos, tp seems like die xbrp nk fhm, ye la aku ni org baru, mude plak tu, mcm xlayak je nk bg nasihat kt org yg da byk pengalaman. Xpe la, we’ll see, ape yg aku fikir ni betul ke x.

Dlm mse ape yg aku blaja psl bisnes ni, kite kne ikut peredaran semasa, then lagi satu, kne fikir jgk lifecycle sesuatu product tu. Tp aku xnmpk lagi sejak aku keje kt cni, sume tu diendahkn pdhal bnd tu la paling basic. Sbb tu kbykn produk kt Malaysia xbrp nk tahan lme, lg2 keluaran SME, sbb derng xfikir bnd2 basic ni. Yg dierng ingt nk untung cepat je, tp bile ade effect berlaku, solution xde, so mule la wt pertimbangn xwajar. Mungkin dlm 4 atau 5 tahun boleh lagi la maintain, tp xkn nk utng dlm 4 tahun jek kn. Semakin tue produk tu, semakin kurang income die klu xkne carenye utk memperbaiki sesuatu produk. That’s y kbykkn company luar, dierng dtg dgn R&D, sbb nk kaji bnd2 ni sume. Hurm, berfalsafah plak aku. Hehe! Tp itu yg aku study tym kt university dlu n aku nmpk teori2 dan formula2 tu mmg ade bile da msuk dunie pekerjaan sbnr. Tp xpela, aku anggap ni sbg suatu pengalaman, sbb xselamenye aku nk mkn gaji kn. Aku pn bercita2 nk bukak bisnes sndiri, dan harap segala pengalamn aku timba ni membantu aku di kemudian hari.

Hurm… Tetibe jek

Agak lme jgk aku xusha blog ni, bz jgk r. Alhamdulillah aku dah dpt keje. Mungkin agak terlewat utk aku gtaw kt cni sbb aku da berfikir2 nk crik keje len dah. Huhu. Hr ni aku nk timbulkn kelainan. Pe yg lain tu? Xde la lain sgt, tp spnjg aku menulis blog ni, jarang aku gune BM. So hr ni aku nk try r satu.

So berckp psl BM ni, teringt aku tym aku stay kt umh family gp aku. Spnjg aku kt sne aku asyik la melayan karenah adik gp aku yg bongsu tu. Orgnye mmg peramah, byk ckp smpi ssh ko nk stop. Yg best nye tu, lelaki, hehe! Kalah pompuan. Die slalu gak citer psl masalh die kt skolah especially tym blaja BM. Hurmm, pd mulenye aku hairan r, ape mende yg ssh sgt dgn BM ni. Pastu die citer la mcm2, dr ssh nk menyebut perkataan baku smpi die nk tergelak pastu smpi la ke tahap ssh nak mengeja sesuatu perkataan tu. Dlm ati aku tym tu, mak aii, klu bdk darjah tiga ckp cmni kt aku xpela, ni bdk tgkt 5 beb. Iskk3! Punyer la die xpuas hati, smpi kdng2 ade la jgk die ckp xsuke kt cikgu BM die tu. Hurm, ntah la. Cikgu plak kne salah yer, mcm aku jgk dlu. Hehe!

Tp aku hairan la, knp ssh sgt dierng ni nk faham & study BM, pd hal tiap hari kt umh dok ckp BM, xkn la ssh sgt kot. Bhs sendiri nk kne blaja, xkn la ssh. Aku pn heran, nk kate perbezaan yg ketara tu xde la, cume loghat je lain pastu tatabhs je diperbetulkan, tu pn ssh gak ke? Len la klu mcm kiterng dr Swk, lagi la jauh perbezaan nye. Da la kne blaja bhs baru, pastu kne tmbh lagi dgn BI. Agak2nye, sape lagi ssh? Aku rs kiterng la kot, perbezaan bhs tu da mmg jauh, smpikn klu aku bckp loghat melayu swk, confirm satu mende pn org cni xfhm. Aku mmg dh agak da. Hehe! Tp tu la, dierng ade kelebihan utk menguasai bhs sendiri siap di naik taraf sbg bhs kebangsaan, tp msih jgk xdpt menguasainye. Kalah dgn org2 yg mcm aku ni la, ddk kt hutan, dgn bhs aku, tp at least aku lulus cemerlang BM aku.

Pd pndpt aku la kn, memalukan la klu kite xmenguasai bhs kebangsaan kite sendiri. Lagi2 klu anda berketurunan melayu asli. Mak ayah pn melayu. Xke kite rase malu, org lain yg bukan berketurunan melayu lebih pndi dan lebih arif menggunakan bhs nenek moyang kite sendiri, yg kite plak masih nk bertatih. Nmpk sgt kite x ambl endah je psl budaya dan warisan kaum kite. Aku dr swk ni pn boleh berbhs melayu dgn fasih, klu nk berbicare dgn bhs baku pn boleh sbb aku mmg xde mslh, cume jgn tergelak je la… hehe! Maybe ape yg aku lontarkn kt cni menyakitkn hati sesetgh org, tp bg kiterng, mksd aku kaum minoriti ni, aku rse kbykkn kiterng mmpunyai pndpt yg sme. So jgn la memalukn diri sendiri. Lagi satu, aku bkn nk menyelar semua tp hny segelintir je la, tu pn scr kebetulan aku tetibe terfikir bnd ni. Huhu…

(P/S: Bhs yg aku gunakn pn bkn la BM yg betul, sbb ape yg aku utarakn kt cni bersifat santai, mls nk formal sgt. Lgpn, xde sbb aku nk tnjukkn kepandaian aku dlm BM, ckpla dgn kptsn SPM aku yg A tu… ekekeke!)